I am a woman on a journey. Where am I going? That has yet to be decided. Who I am personally is a divorced woman in her early forties. I am vertically challenged. Yeah, I think that’s a dumb term too. I’m short. Really short. I’m a bit overweight (and yes, using the term “a bit” does in fact make me feel better. Don’t judge me. ), out of shape, and, I’m learning, have ADD. I am mother to a beautiful, intelligent, creative spirit that lights up my world. She just turned eleven and has ADHD, anxiety disorder, a black hole where her self esteem should be, unparalleled sarcastic wit, and eyes that see humanity in ways that astound me. Intuitive and bright, I am proud to be her mom.
I am a knitter, a baker, a singer (but only in the church choir and shower!), mother, daughter, sister, aunt and friend. I am an avid reader and a writer. I’ve loved books always and do not remember a time when a fresh pad of paper and well sharpened number two pencils weren’t my best friends. I’ve dreamed of being a writer for most of my life. For a living I work in a restaurant owned by my sister and brother in law. They have been a God-send. I don’t work a lot of hours and it’s hard to make ends meet, but as single mom to a child with severe anxiety issues, I needed to be home in the afternoons and evenings. We make it work. Am I jealous sometimes of the women my age that have careers? Maybe not jealous, but I have allowed myself to feel inadequate more than once. I refuse to feel that way any longer. If people look down on me because I am a waitress (GASP!!), then that is their problem and not mine.
Have I mentioned I have Social Anxiety Disorder and when around people I am an awkward mess? I am a FANTASTIC person, but believe me, if we are introduced at a party you won’t stick around long enough to find out. Oh. Wait. we won’t be introduced because I wouldn’t go to the party even if I WAS invited.
The journey I am on is life. I am on a path of self discovery, weight loss, parenting, coping with ADD and anxiety, as well as a journey to discover new hobbies, books and realize my own writing dreams. I may be random at times, but I invite you to hang out with me here and join my travels. I’ll share about whatever life brings my way; ideas, tips, tricks, momentary flashes of brilliance as well as lessons learned the hard way. I’ll try to laugh often, but I won’t promise to never cry.
I want to delve into what makes us human. How do we set priorities? How do we see ourselves and the world? I want to tackle the tough days and share the awesome ones and maybe, somewhere, someone else is struggling and will feel a little less alone.
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