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A Book In a Month? What?

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A little something about me:  I am an extremely disorganized person.  It’s true.  In my mind I have pictures of everything neat and tidy.  I clip pictures out of magazines of creative ways to organize.  My Pinterest board is full of organizing ideas.  In my head I’m good at it.  In my head my house looks like a model home.  In my head.  Reality is a bit different.  I’m always running in circles, I don’t finish a lot of what I start, and organizing remains only a beautiful dream.  My daughter and I have been known to pick through a laundry basket for a week in order to get dressed, emptying the basket without ever folding or putting anything away.  I’m a procrastinator.  I bounce from project to project without finishing them.  I want so desperately to be I different in these areas. 

What does this have to do with writing?  Well, for one, it’s hard to find writing time when you always have a to-do list a mile long.  It’s also hard to find the computer in all the clutter.  It’s hard to find paper when you forgot that you used the last of it and haven’t bought more.  I love writing with all my heart and soul.  I believe I was born to write.  I love words, I love books, I love the smell of paper.  Libraries and book stores make my heart beat just a little faster.  My unfinished projects however, are not only limited to household chores and maintenance.  I START stories all the time.  I get an idea and am crazy about it.  I can’t wait to write about it.  I get started and things get in my way.  Another idea comes to me.  I get excited about it and start writing it.  Suddenly, I’ve abandoned project A for project B.  It happens all the time.  I am a prolific beginner of stories, I just don’t always get to the end.  I can usually maintain momentum to finish a short story, but a novel?  I’ve written a couple of truly awful ones, but I have scores of ideas for others that have faded away after the first chapter. 

I vowed to change all that when I started to write seriously again.  I vowed I would be a better, improved writer over the one I was twenty years ago.  Yeah, well, so much for hoping.  I still abandon projects at whim.  When I started hearing people talking about the upcoming NaNoWriMo, I had to check it out and see what all the fuss was about.  I will admit that when I first heard the term I had no idea what it was.  After visiting the website and getting some information I was intrigued.  Was it even possible to write a novel in thirty days?  Could someone as undisciplined as me possibly do it?  With a smile, I created an account.  I have no idea how close I will come to 50,000 words, but I knew it was the perfect challenge for me.  I love that first sensation of writing with wild abandon.  Can I keep it up over the course of a month and finish what I start?  We will see. 

I am hoping to learn something about discipline with this challenge. I am hoping to show myself that if I plan and organize my time (and my office!) that I am capable of seeing a project through to the end.  I can get from “Once upon a time” to “the end” successfully.  I want to write, and I don’t want it to take me years to finish a single project.  That’s okay if the subject matter is that difficult, or that much research is required, but other than that, it shouldn’t take me another twenty years to put out another book!

I have visions of emerging at the end of NaNo with the thrill of accomplishment in my heart.  I have visions of learning that I CAN balance life, writing, single parenting and a day job.  I also want to show myself that I can accomplish things if I just push myself a bit harder to succeed.  Like I said, I have no idea if I can do this.  I have no idea how far I will get.  I’m pretty excited to see!

I’ve pulled a story idea from my file and thought over the plot and the direction I want the story to take.  I know what I’d like the characters to learn.  I have never been one to work out a detailed plot outline.  I’ve always jotted down my ideas, some problems and some character information and went from there.  Yes, my writing style is as disorganized as I am.  Now I only have to wait for November 1st so I can get started on it.  In the meantime I feel I better clean the house and freeze some dinners! 


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Author: kristilazzari

I am a happily divorced mom and writer from rural Alabama. My daughter and I live off the beaten path with a spoiled rotten Flat Haired Retriever that believes herself to be a lap dog. Books are my passion, my day job keeps the lights on.

One thought on “A Book In a Month? What?

  1. I think this project would be a challenge even to the most organized person…and it will a great challenge for you…of course i have confidence you will succeed…good luck…may all your clutter disappear !

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