I arrived home safe and sound from vacation on Monday evening. Vacation was great, despite the horrendous headache that settled in on the first day and lasted the entire week. It was good to unplug, unwind, have nowhere to go and nothing to do. It was good to watch my DD have fun, good to spend time with my sister and nephew. We had some laughs, I took some naps, read a book, and tried not to think too much or worry about things back home. When I got home, I didn’t feel as relaxed or rejuvenated as I would have liked. I’m going to attribute that to the headache I tried so hard to ignore. I just felt tired. That’s okay, it was still a great trip.
So now that I’m home, it’s as if I just can’t get back in the swing of things. I’ve started the laundry, but most of it has yet to be folded and put away. The suitcases are still sitting in my bedroom floor. I have studying to attend to, and writing that needs to be done, and yet, I just don’t feel the overwhelming urge to do any of it. Yesterday I sat down to do some studying at 6 p.m. and fell asleep!! I woke up two hours later, wide awake, but with no more desire to do any studying than when I was asleep. Tonight I told myself I was going to study for a while, write for a while, and then read for a bit. So far I’ve done none of the above. oh, I did fall asleep again. What gives? I have been feeling light headed lately, and the headaches are more than usual. I’ve felt tired and drained and can barely stay awake in the afternoon. Maybe a visit to the doctor is in order, at least to check out this light headedness.
Why is it so hard to get back on track after a break? I needed the break. I craved the break. Now that it’s over I should be raring to go. Not so much. I can’t figure it out. Motivation is still missing. I read an article just a few minutes ago on motivation and the ADHD adult, and it made some good points and offered some good tips. Tomorrow I may have to try some of them. If I can stay awake.
I need to get down to business with Blessed Light, Cleansing Rain. It’s time to make my final edits and then get it formatted for Kindle. I have to get a move on if I’m going to have it ready for its October release. I’m excited about the project being finished, but maybe that’s why I’m digging in my heels too. It’s hard when it comes to an end. It’s hard to let it go. I tell myself it just means that now I’m free to play with the other characters in my head. That should be a good thing.
What do you do when you’ve been away for a while and need to get your motivation back? How do you ease back into the world after being unplugged? I know it feels overwhelming when you turn that computer back on for the first time. I even “cheated” and checked email mid week, but still…
I’m in desperate need of a swift kick to get me going. I also wouldn’t mind if this damned room would stop spinning just a little bit. Well, not spinning exactly, it isn’t going fast, it’s just moving. I know it is. It’s trying to be sneaky about it, but the strange feeling in my head tells me it’s so.