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Book Launches, NaNoWri Mo and Writing Life


So, it’s been a few weeks since Blessed Light, Cleansing Rain launched. The official local launch party is still a week away, but that really doesn’t count. That’s just an excuse to get together with fantastic people who have supported me in my crazy endeavors and have some fun!

When Blessed Light was published, I definitely heaved a huge sigh of relief. The past year has been a roller coaster with this book. Writing, re-writing, re-writing again – writing a scene fourteen different ways until I found the way that worked for my characters – formatting issues ( issue being my lack of tech savvy) – but when all was said and done, here was this book that meant something to me. I was holding a year of my life in my hands, and it felt good. There was still that rush of What Now?? that always follows completion of a writing project, though. That feeling of now being lost with no true direction, and wondering what to do with myself. I’ve not done any writing since the day I completely finished Blessed Light. I have an idea or two swirling around, though. I decided to let them stew a bit. I decided to enjoy the launch, enjoy the party and then follow the next cast of characters that take up residence in my head.

I decided to take some time off writing. I need time to read some books, watch some movies and just be. Then I realized, that hey, it’s middle of October — that means NaNowriMo is just around the corner. NaNo was an awesome experience for me last year, I can’t just skip it!  So — I’ll take a week break after the launch party and then when November first hits I’ll be ready for NaNo again. After that I fully intend to let my draft settle and take some time off. Probably two or three months, actually. I think it will be good for me to rest the writer part of me and engage the reader part of me.

I had a moment the other night where I had to laugh at the writer part of me. We ran out of something at work, so I was sent to the store. It was Friday night, about 7:00 p.m. and there was an art festival in town that we had forgotten about. So, there I was, in the middle of traffic, when I saw her. I took one look at this woman and KNEW she was a character in my next book. She was waiting to cross the street, talking animatedly with her companions. She looked to be late seventies, early eighties, with fiery red hair that was curled into an elaborate ponytail and tied with a big black bow. She was wearing a lace and spandex black bodysuit. (Honestly, if my 40 something year old body looked like hers, I’d probably show it off in a body suit too…just sayin’.) She had on big sunglasses (yes, at 7 p.m.) I was sitting in my car and just started grinning from ear to ear. Now here was an interesting woman. As I drove to the store I found myself wondering how she talked, what her voice sounded like, what kind of perfume she wore and what kind of music she listened to. When I woke up the next day, she started talking to me. She had some stories, let me tell you! It hit me that morning that I was finally BACK. My writer’s soul had returned after being dormant for so long. I can’t remember the last time I saw someone on the street or overheard a bit of conversation that got me so excited. I can’t wait to write about her and some of her exploits.

Now I’ll spend the week getting ready for the launch party. Other than hosting family holiday dinners, I do not think I have ever actually hosted a party in my adult life. Even though most of the guest list comes from family, I’m still a little nervous about it. Guess that’s the ADHD, Anxiety Disorder part of me that has to stick it’s nose into everything. It should be lots of fun though, with food, cocktails, door prizes and even a discount on Blessed Light Cleansing Rain. I think I need this party. I need to celebrate where I am in life right now. I need to celebrate the fact that I am finally doing what I love (even if I can’t do it full time) and that I’m succeeding. Small steps maybe, but I’m succeeding nonetheless. I like who I am now. I like who I have become. I love being able to embrace the writer part of me and watch it grow. I like knowing that I am fulfilling myself. I look forward to being able to celebrate with, and thank those, who have stood by me and who have supported me and cheered me on. They have been invaluable. I’m even going shopping this weekend and I’m going to buy myself a new outfit. Yep, that IS a big deal!  😉


Author: kristilazzari

I am a happily divorced mom and writer from rural Alabama. My daughter and I live off the beaten path with a spoiled rotten Flat Haired Retriever that believes herself to be a lap dog. Books are my passion, my day job keeps the lights on.

5 thoughts on “Book Launches, NaNoWri Mo and Writing Life

  1. I can’t wait to hear her story. That kind of confidence rocks my world. PS

  2. Why not; you owe it to yourself. Well done 🙂

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