Last night was the launch party for Blessed Light, Cleansing Rain. Wow. Attendance was good, not everyone who said they were coming managed to make it, but still, enough people were there that I was feeling the love. 🙂
First of all, I have to say what an amazing nephew I have. Not only did he share his photos and trip experiences from Quepos, Costa Rica with me while I was writing the book, he has been a constant and steadfast supporter. When the idea to have this launch party came, he was willing to jump in and do anything to help. He helped plan the party from the decor to the food. The week of the event, he mowed my lawn, and then put a fabulous pond on my front porch and filled my front and back porches with fountains and tropical plants. It was gorgeous. He helped prepare all the food, fussing over presentation and wanting everything to be “just right” for me. The display was gorgeous. I couldn’t have done any of it without him. I hope he knows how much I appreciate all his hard work and effort. I’m one lucky gal to have him not only as my nephew but as as a friend.
My best friend made a twenty hour drive to be there to celebrate with me. It’s truly wonderful to have someone in your life that cares that much. Someone who is with you even when the crazy shows. I’ve been blessed to have her in my life for thirteen years, and it will be interesting to see what the future holds. I was very fortunate to also get to meet someone else for the first time. A lovely woman who has been a faithful supporter, who reads my blogs and always offers a kind word, actually lives close to me. I’d never met her in person, so it was a highlight for me when she and her husband were able to attend. (now whether or not she was happy to have met me, is another story altogether! 😉 Hopefully, she was not disappointed that she came.) Add a few friends and relatives to the mix, and it truly was a nice evening.
I had a limited supply of books available at the launch, and I happily sold all of them and took orders for more. A few bought multiple copies to give as gifts, which was especially nice! As a writer, I worry sometimes over whether someone who purchased my book enjoyed it. It’s a wonderful feeling when, after reading, they purchase several more to give as gifts. It is the ultimate compliment.
I’ve been blessed in so many ways, and that is what this celebration was really all about. It wasn’t just the launch of a new book, it was the launch of so much more than that. When I started this blog, I said I was on a journey and had no idea where it was going to lead. Being on the right path makes all the difference. This launch was a celebration of the life I’m now living. It is the celebration of a life that I love, a life I’ve made with my beautiful daughter, and the love and support of some wonderful friends and a few key family members. You can’t pick your family, and believe me, I have my share of relations that I have to let go because they are toxic, but the few that I happily surround myself with are more precious to me than they will ever know. By the same token, I’ve never been an extrovert with tons of friends, so the small circle of friends I have made mean the world to me. Their support and encouragement, and even their interest in my work has been astonishing to me. Sometimes I sit back and I just can’t believe that there are people out there who actually CARE. People who want me to succeed. People who are kind to me and have allowed me into their life. I feel so very blessed.
Some of you may know that I put writing aside for over twenty years before picking it back up again. When I joined the writing community after such a long absence, everything had changed, and the writing world was a different place than I’d left. I learned much, and have much left to learn. Still, the community has embraced me, and I am grateful. Writing again – being on the path that I was meant to be on – is a wonderfully freeing thing. I feel complete and more content with my life than I have in a very long time. Possibly ever. Part of that is not just the writing, but in also freeing myself from the toxic familial relationships I spoke about. I finally feel like I can, without guilt, lead my own life, regardless of what others may think. I can be my own person, and I can free myself from the guilt and the shame. I’m not completely there, I still have some fear of totally omitting some people from my life, but now I know that I can, and that I will be okay. The world will keep on moving as it is intended, and I will be a happier, healthier person for it.
I would consider the book launch a success, and for the first time, I would consider myself one as well. Not in a snotty, bragging, “I’m-so-wonderful” kind of way (we all know that sure as heck isn’t true!) but in a healthy, “I’m-in-a-good-place” kind of way. That makes all the difference.
Who am I? Why do you care? The former is many things, and the latter..well…I’m not sure if you do or not. No reason why you should really, but my journey is a life in the making. I’ve heard people say before that their life began at forty. I’m starting to see the wisdom in that. I have a feeling that the years to come just may be the best yet. Who knows where I will go or what I will do from here, but it will be interesting to find out. I’m kinda excited about it.
So really, who am I? I’m a writer. I’m a mom. I’m an ADHD tornado of chaos waiting to happen. I’m many things. Too many to name. If you don’t care, I’m okay with that. If you do, then thanks. Stick with me and we’ll make some memories and have some fun. I’ve got lots to do. Right now I’m tired, but stay tuned….