Yeah, so much for that schedule I was all fired up about making a couple weeks ago! How do my days slip by me so unproductively? I’ll blame it on the ADD. That’s got to be it. I have so much to catch up on, that I find myself flitting from thing to thing only doing part of each. I HAVE to get out of that mode and finish one task before I start another.
Things are leveling out here though. My daughter is getting used to the new routine and I am seeing some improvements in her mood and anxiety levels. She is intrepid still, not sure if this new way will last, but I think it will sink in before long.
I wish I could say I was spending my time writing my book and reading great literature, but not so. (Not right now anyway). I am in between books, and after doing some initial outlining I’ve put my own book on the back burner for a bit. I’ve immersed myself in some online classes that I started a while back, but situation being what it was, I was unable to devote much time to them, and am actually learning a lot and am getting excited about the possibilities presented with this new endeavor. (more on that later)
The future is going to be an exciting one. I’m still on this journey. That’s the thing about journeys vs trips. Trips come to an end. No matter how great they are, they have a beginning and an end. Journeys do not. Journeys continue on, ever changing, taking us from one place to another, one experience after another, each one unique. Different choices would take us in any given direction, but we travel on a course directed by each decision and each new day finds us somewhere new and somewhere we’ve never been before. Even when we feel we are stuck in the same old rut in the same old place doing the same old things – that is never entirely true. One choice, one chance meeting, one decision, can alter that course. I like knowing that the journey will never end for as long as I’m on this earth. I like knowing that each day can bring new possibilities and new opportunities to learn and grow. I spent years feeling like my journey was not in my control, and now it is comforting to know that I am the only one that gets to choose. Sometimes I won’t choose the right path, I’ll have to backtrack or forge my way through the weeds and muck until I can emerge on a new, smoother road, but it is always of my choosing. Mistakes are learning opportunities and I am in charge of my mistakes as well as my successes. I didn’t appreciate that when I was younger. Maybe no one ever truly does. I appreciate it now. I am thankful for much in this life.
I’m making changes and working on new projects. I am, and will always continue to be, a work in progress.