My first instinct, when I thought of yesterday’s blog post, was to come over here and delete it. Just a day full of frustration and pain leading to a big long whine. But then I stopped to think. Everyone, even the most positive of people, have bad days. We all have times in our lives when things are going less than perfect. Life isn’t about pretending those moments don’t exist, life is about getting through those moments the best we can and maybe even learning a little something.
It’s hard to let people see you when you aren’t your best. We want people to see only the good sides of us, the smile, the can-do attitude, the poise, and the confidence. Truth is, we don’t always feel those things. Sometimes things break down and we don’t know how we are going to fix them. Sometimes we get sick or hurt. Our kids get sick or hurt. Jobs end. Friends leave. We embark on new careers. We move. We do dumb things. Stress can creep in and grab hold, even if it is only briefly. I guess my point is that no life is perfect. No one is without problems, frustrations, or days where they need to whine a bit and just let it go. Maybe my post yesterday had more to do with ADD overwhelm than anything else. It happens.
That doesn’t mean it should be erased. I shouldn’t pretend to live some idyllic life where nothing bad ever happens, or that I’m never down. Sometimes I’m just not sure what I’m going to do and sometimes I’m frustrated as all hell, and that’s okay. It means I’m human and it means that I am living my life. I’m okay with that. Maybe some people think fine, have a bad day, you don’t have to share it with everyone because no one cares. It’s okay if no one cares. I share what I think is important. It may not be important to everyone, but it is important to me – because ultimately this is MY journey and I want to remember the good and the bad, the happy and the sad. I want to see where I’ve been so that I can improve my future.
After all, I AM a woman on a journey, and where I’ll end up is yet to be determined.